RANDOM THOUGHTS AND OTHER MISSELANOUS BULLSHIT

Its 5:11 am Im glad to have my old schedule back. Life is good. Im home alone and im not trippin like that lil kid in the movie. hell my apt is too damn small anyway...

I have to cuss the lady across the street out first thing tomorrow I put her old ass on my "to do" list. Shes 61 years old and I do favors for her for free. Thank God they aint sexual. Naw they are computer related. This old bitch had the nerve to scream at me cause she couldnt find a file. I screamed right back at her ass too.

I said " Who the fuck you hollerin at you aint my fuckin mama"

she says, "I aint holla"

i said

"Old bitch ill see you tomorrow"

It felt good too she deserves it.

My mama told me all old peole dont deserve respect she said "remember they were young once and they were probbly a pain in the ass then." mama was always right. Shes gonna figure that file out her damn self. But I have to curse her out cause I wont get no sleepp less I do.

Bitch

Kevin J is becoming a pain! He is Brendas Nephew and whenever hes with his wife he calls me baby...Yes baby! His wife says (shes gotta be the dumbest broad I ever met by the way just pat her head and her legs fly open I bet.) She says He only calls you and me baby im like WTF I said "my f (in) name aint baby. )wtf has my life been reduced too. I need new companions. Sad part is deep down. I have some sort of distorted crush on him. Hes the type guy if you were to take him home you better hide your damn wallet and good jewlery he comes from a long line of theives. They are all good looking theives tho. ( like that maters) But he talks so fuckin gay. Like he says aww Girl please and stuff. hell, I dont even talk like that! His girl must be a retard. Women are the biggest mystery

Charles said I lost weight. I see it too. I look smaller. But Im only a 29 waist. But I weigh myself im 140 so im the same damn weight. This kid on Yahoo told me how to lose my stomich he was right. Just eat one meal a day and alot of oatmeal oh and drink insure or sports drinks. It worked to. But damn I lost weight. His diet is unhealthy. But my stomich looks good. But those drinks give you the craps. I just do the water

Gabe will be going to Canada for 6 months he will be in Ottowa. I swear the only reason we have lasted so long is were only a couple half a year. I hate Canada. The clubs all suck and im just geting into rock music which he spins their and 3 months in Quebec city. I wish for normalacy but that seems to elude me. But better a 6 month love than none at all. I get to email and write letters and yeah we use to do I Chat which I hate. I HATE I CHAT!!!

This morning feels good. I will be working all weekend and I have to make enough to pay some bills I overlooked. I think I need to stop paying bills every three months. It screws up my credit awful. Even the phone company reports you to the credit bureu. Not like we are ever getting a house. Weve gone back and forth on that shit for so many years ill just make somebody else rich and keep renting. Screw it

Charles came by today he is from Kingston Jamacia hes really a good friend. How he tolerates me is one of lifes great wonders. he wants to be down low but he likes men tooo much to be very good at it. But I egg him on and make him think no one knows his azz is Gay. Even tho hes 36 and lives with his mama and has no children. Im going to let him stay at my place when I go to Atlantic city next month. he cleans so awesomely plus I dont care who he screws as long as they dont steal my stuff. I once left him here for three weeks when I went to cali I didnt recognize my house when I got back. I m willing to go away 4 weeks for that again! I love his capabilities.

Lenny had a car accident. I owe him like 500.00 which I havent paid a damn cent. I gotta pay him. Its been three months and I cant remember what I used the money for. Thank God weve beenn friends since st bridges school days. Imma see him this weekend and the worst part is I have the money im just to lazy to go across town. With friends like me who needs enemies. I am ashamed.

Theres gay men up stairs men come and go all the time none are good looking tho. The older too. The one guy who lives their is skinny and acts slow. He talks to me all the time i talk too and as soon as he walks away I say shit like " "damn black ass bitch" why do I do that? Thats so childish. I think he is on drugs his body looks unhealthy type of thin. His breath isnt the freashest either .Plus I seen him talkin to my lo life cousin who sells crack and god knows what else yeah he does. He sells it and is still poor. Dumb ass hes a crip or something. Were not close thank God for distance. But hes been in the neighborhood all the time. Everyone says your cousin is doing this and that it gets embaraassing. Oh well

oh well I feel purged writing is good for me.

I looked at craigs list do u know you can cruise sexual encounters on their. I bet those people are ugly as homemade sin too they have the vaguest descriptions and all they put for a picture is a damn dick or a shot of their ass. Makes you wonder what the rest looks like. I might place a fake ad and see what type responses I get. Ill do that on a rainy day that will be my recreation.

The chat line has opened up again they closed it after they killed the gay man and cut him up and distributed his body in garbage bags all over brooklyn. That was soo fucked up. Youd think people would be leery nOPe me and charles were on their laughing at the dudes trying to score. Its a fun thing to do when you have no plans otherwise. Gabe hates it and says I need to grow the fuck up. But hes just mad cause he thinks one day Ill hear an ad that entices me. AS If. Im scared of strangers. I always think with my luck illl get hannibal lectors step brother or something.

Ive never even gotten aroused from the sight. Hmm maybe I will need viagra when I become a senior. Its a possiblity.

well I have tripped out enough. Lay my ass down. Ill find anything to do to not do dishes.

I will pray for a dishwasher. Im goiing to church sunday and Imma get up when they have requests and say " I would like yall to pray that the lord sends me a dishwasher" id=f i get struck down ill never be on multipoly after sunday and whomever is reading this shit ( you must have nothing to do either) will know Jah got smited. ( i love that term ....(smited)